i've lost them

Alhamdulillah..dah msuk sem 2..tp result quite truk..bukan quite..truk yg amat sebenanyer..below 3.0..cukup2 makan..i've let my parents down laa...
sdih sgt..tp alhmdulillah feel sad only for 10 minutes is enough...then trus simpan result tu dlm laci..x tgok lgsung...still bsyukur sbb x kne kick..still ade chance utk stay kt kmj..itu satu rezki kan???? Allah bg pluangutk brubah...i' m slow learner..yezz that's me...but matric style ni memg fast... sdih mcmanepun..still ade time utk happy utk kawan2..rmai yg dpt 4 flat n 3.5 above..tu rezki diorng...sungguhla...dugaan sgt byk kat sni..sem 2 ni mcm sumthing yg baru..sbb terasa sgt hilng kawan...aku x tau..sape yg pergi...diorg yg mninggalkan or aku yg terasa ditinggalkan...ya Allah sedih sgt2...sakit sbenanyer...xpe la...maybe diorg xtau g aku sgt syang ngan diorang..n insyaAllah aku syang diorg kerana Allah...diorng dh x pduli aku..it's ok...tu smuer ujian dlm pshabatan...kne sabar...no matter wat...diorg still shbat aku...biarlah diorg x tau skalipun...mungkin tu yg tbaik utk aku n mereka....sekali saye dah syang...susah utk syang tu hilang....